E c h o of P h o t o n s

is an intuitive and intimate documentation of the process in which I am getting awareness on my own internal fragmentation and the importance of nature leading the process to find back my self into wholeness. At one point of my life, I became aware of my fragments. Then my problem was: How to integrate and know what is true? I didn't know how but I felt I have a deep right to do so. This felt like a war between everything I thought to be true. I started photography because it is a friendly reminder saying : You are here. You are walking on earth and have the right to exist. Not knowing who I was, I searched to feel present. There was this deep calm that my running mind couldn’t control. Step by step I was learning to surrender. Learning to witness what my body was carrying, individually, ancestrally, collectively.

And as I did, peacefulness emerged.

In Echo of Photon, the photographies don’t illustrate the text. Both have their own path and reality, which are entering in resonance, echoing each other. Allowing to go deeper into each other’s worlds. The photographies are shaping a journey from a desolated small city in Poland, through the forest towards the sea. From my childhood to my adulthood, revisiting my life’s experiences, from fragmentation towards the process of slowly becoming whole. Photography is used as the preservation of the present moment. It is the witnessing of the body, mind and heart. The disagreements between them and the silent act of acceptance of what ever emerges. Perfect in its imperfection. The text is a prose composition that tells the story of young girl facing her memories. Trying to find sense within the chaos of amnesia, impressions and feelings. Different realities which are colliding. Sometimes they are even contradicting each other.

A fall from a window.

A fathers paranoia.

A dog found half dead that becomes a young boy in the eyes of an amnesiac mother.

A doctor lying.

A girl that always goes beyond, merging with the sea.

As the sea holds all.

Weirdly, she does not drown.

The text is a form of finding a new translation, building a new inner language. In which the intuition speaks and the mind learns to listen. It is the witnessing of artificial structures that fall apart as they are witnessed. What is organic remains.

Finding a place to re-experience trauma and embracing a journey towards healing. For those who resonate I am sharing my work. As I know how lonely this process can be.

Susann Carmen Jagodzinska

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For the Tokyo Art Book Fair 2024 an Extract of the same text has been translated into Japanese.

Translation: Shoichiro Kawashima.

Thank you.